The Lioness in the Leo

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It has literally been two months. How the hell are you? Sorry for being missing in action for so long. I was just regrouping and recovering from having my step daughter here and working hard to maintain the job.  My health is very good and I have lost lots of weight with just light exercise and proper diet. It is amazing what soup and salad can do for you. I should be seeing my doctor soon, but my blood pressure is perfect! I feel great. I hope all is well with you dear readers. Is anyone watching the new Sharknado tonight?? My mother has been waiting all summer for it and is propped up on the couch awaiting it to premiere! Well I will try start adding more posts and try to not be a dam stranger. Ciao!

Forgive me, it has been too long. So much has transpired. I have been on probation on my job and stressed. I have disagreement upon disagreement with my husband and stressed. I have had menopausal symptoms and pain and stressed. This is the first weekend in a while were I have had fun. I drank and made bbq with my daughters and just relaxed. It was a slice of heaven. I wish that when we are born we are given some instructions to life along side our placentas. It is a struggle. Happy to say not financially, but sad to say mentally for me. I will do my best not to ignore this blog again. How are you readers? Have you had a peaceful and meaningful Memorial Day? Today I pay tribute to my grandfather and all the others who fought to protect our rights. I also remember my friends father who had helped in Persian Gulf, he is now helping the Lord look over us. Bless him. The moral of things today for me are that though I am stressed I am here, I am well. I am no longer on probation, I am no lo...

My old ass is over here jammen! lol Have a great weeknd.

I am after the American Dream, but it is def in the wrong country. I really am convinced that I am never going to achieve the things that I need to at this pace. My job is so shaky right now, the funds to get a beautiful yet manageable home are dashed. I pray to God everyday, but I know he has bigger things to attend to than my middle aged yearnings. I hope that I can, but the reality is I know I can't. Woe is me.

Got off to a good start today with a visit from my aunt and cousin. She, my aunt, was really happy with my weight loss. Hell so am I in a way. It is good to be slim again. As the day wore on, it got worse. Ugh. Hubby mad, kids mad, mom mad. I long for the beach with quiet and fun not worry, arguing, and financial turmoil. Speaking of financial turmoil, I am in constant fear of my job ending. My dam work is so hard and unpredictable. I try and try, yet feel not yet entirely confident that I will be there forever and a day. I hope I am, but there are so many errors and things that I end up missing. So basically I am thin and eating a tad bit better but my life is till shit and more shit. lol Oh what a world and I am still melting as I sip wine and dream of a life that is less stressful and free of financial woes. I hope all is well with you readers. I pray that you are all well, healthy, happy, and having the best weekends and spring breaks of your lives. Ciao.

Just another lazy Sunday. Watching the kids play Wii U and getting ready to play the Sims 4. My hubby got it as a gift yesterday and of course I am hooked. If I get fancy enough I may start posting game play or talk about my Sims life. I hope that all is well with you dear readers. Keep your faith and be well. One love.

So this movie is nothing short of amazing, could be reworked a touch and made into a feature film and gross millions, but Hollywood is not interested in original thoughts I guess....enjoy.

Life is good. Perfecting my craft at work and at home. Existing is not so bad now. Blood pressure is awesome as well. Meds and diet have been doing me right. Now if I could get rid of this touch of a cold I have I would not have narry a complaint. lol. Nothing a little hot tea and rest won't fix though. I am almost ready for summer. Really anxious to get back to the beach and go to some more concerts. Have a great weekend everyone! Ciao.

Saturday was fun and educational. Went to the Springs Preserve for the Afro American Celebration with my daughters. Really great. They had fun too. Funnel cake, good music, and photo ops. What more could you want. Especially a nice 79 degree low cool wind weather to go along with it. Sunday was less eventful. Quiet and relaxing. This weekend may have been one of the least stressful I have had in a while. I wonder if it has anything to do with not having my husband around. It very will may be. The pressures of marriage are too much some times. I love him, but with him being busy and away for a while makes me feel more free and less obligated to chore sex or affection. Sleeping alone is also fab. I miss it a bit too much. lol My tune may change by the end of the week, but we will see. As for work, I wonder what the hell is going to happen to me in a month. That is really all the time I have left to complete the quarter and do it well. I now see why they have a large turnover. Stress and ...

Another stressful week behind me. Focusing on relaxing and enjoying my days off with my family. I hope all is well with you readers. I have been watching a shit ton of YouTube for some reason, boredom I imagine, and have really enjoined the creepypastas on there. There is something about creative writing that just engulfs me. I don't know if it is the escape from reality or the beauty I find is a simple yet complex art form of writing. The Weeknd is making a new vid on one of my fav songs soon, Acquainted, uber excited about that. Perhaps ya'll will check it out too. Ciao for now my bellas.

Much better week, better in health and family and work. I actually had a day of no mistakes on my billing that I made! Like for fucking wow!!! lol. Found a new spot to hang out at tonight and on Thursdays. Going tonight to see it is lame. Can't hurt. Hope the hubby will come out. Intimacy has been next to nothing lately. Sucks. Well back to digital couponing and shopping in catalogs for middle aged mom shit. Love ya readers, have a fantastic weekend and enjoy your Super Bowl Sunday. I am a Pats fan so, go Carolina! lol.

Doc appt Monday. Totally nervous about what my findings are going to be in my blood tests. I hope I am not dying or am horribly odd in some sort of fluke way. I have been eating a little better, but managed to consume 4 donuts in 2 days! Fuck, so bad. I have also managed to forget taking my blood pressure for the past 4-5 days! Ugh. What is it in the human nature that makes us not care about our health or well being??? Denial? Laziness? I wonder what the hell my deal is sometimes. Still have not seen all of the latest Steven Universe shows, bummer. YouTube has been my passion and solace lately. I now know so many facts in my short 34 years on this planet that I could go on a Jeopardy Champ Week and come out Bill Gates rich! lol, well maybe as rich as Oprah. Took care of my little niece today. She is just a month old. She still has her new car smell and is redic gorgy. It has been so long since I held a baby that tiny and hapless. This is my first time being an Aunt, so I had to gush a...

Went to Taco Mexico and had a great lunch. Visiting with my Aunt and chilling with the family for the day. This is the relaxation that I needed. Good times. Have a great day everyone.  :o)

So the dream home I really wanted to build was nearly half a million, so it is back to the drawing board for house shopping. Quicken Loans and several other small loan peoples have been interested in financing at least 80% of my costs for mobile and modular styled homes. The economy has take a turn for the worst lately and while that is horrid for others, Walmart employees and government, it will be good for a first time home buyer like me. The rates will go way down again and loans with come with dirt cheap extras. As for my health, it is way better. Going in Friday for blood tests and to my OBGYN the next Friday. I hope all my parts are working right soon. I really want a house and really dont feel like die'en at the moment, lol. Yeah I gotta laugh with all this or I would be left with only crying and sadness. Laughter is suppose to be the best medicine so I am told, so I am going to try to do more of just that. Until next time readers.

I feel like I am 78 or something, I have 3 doctors appointments in less than a month to get BC and check on my bad ticker. Shit sucks. For now I am eating plenty veg and smoothies with raw fruits and diet juices. Bleeeckch! lol Other than that this year is ok. I like 2016. I will be joining the gym soon, yeah it sounds cliche, but I have to in order to keep my heart healthy. I choose life. Been coloring in one of those adult coloring books with inspirational messages. I like it, no I love it. Fun stuff! I hung two of the finished pics in my cubicle and it really makes my dull desk interesting now. Well I am off to relax before work. Ciao.

Been to long, been busy. Been to the doctor and to the gyno. I am sick. I have heart problems. Though I am not scared of death, I am not ready to die. I have too many things to do for others...yeah others not me. I am done honestly. But I have my children, my mother, my husband, my friends. Life is a real bitch, but she is funny too. I hope the holidays have treated everyone right. My trip to LA and my trip to San Jose were perfection. I hope to return to the beach in the summer and just feel the cool crisp ocean again. It was heaven. I try to pray everyday and keep my faith. My job has a chaplain who comes to lift our spirits, and it is really working. God is going to be the answer for anything I do from these days forth. I hope we can get the best loan for our house, it is really the last thing I am needing to work out before I can feel accomplished and complete. 2016 is a mystery that I hope to carefully and calmly unfold. I hope all of you out there are well. Until I have a few min...