Been to long, been busy. Been to the doctor and to the gyno. I am sick. I have heart problems. Though I am not scared of death, I am not ready to die. I have too many things to do for others...yeah others not me. I am done honestly. But I have my children, my mother, my husband, my friends. Life is a real bitch, but she is funny too. I hope the holidays have treated everyone right. My trip to LA and my trip to San Jose were perfection. I hope to return to the beach in the summer and just feel the cool crisp ocean again. It was heaven. I try to pray everyday and keep my faith. My job has a chaplain who comes to lift our spirits, and it is really working. God is going to be the answer for anything I do from these days forth. I hope we can get the best loan for our house, it is really the last thing I am needing to work out before I can feel accomplished and complete. 2016 is a mystery that I hope to carefully and calmly unfold. I hope all of you out there are well. Until I have a few min again, adew....