I got hired onto my new job Friday. I will work the old one and new one until I see that I can care for myself independent of my other income. Then I can take another well deserved break with my daughters and mum in tow. I still have horrible thoughts about myself for the past few years and working has proven to be the best hobby I could have to forget about them. Money makes me happy and unfortunately is the only thing I want. To provide for my daughters and make my mother comfortable during the winter of her life are of the most importance. I have no space for mean spirited or unapreciative men. This ring on my finger hasn't solved a dam thing as my social media is still exsamined along with my personal items in my home. My few trustworthy friends or folks I laugh with here are also personally attacked on a daily basis and I hate it. I don't do jealousy. I was nearly attacked with an iron hammer yesterday and was accused of cheating. The charger to my car was also taken, then appeared again like magic. I don't do games. Most likely this post will lead to more attacks and abuse. Why write about it. So that you will know what happened to me...so someone in my situation won't think they are alone, to do some sort of justice for another being abused, to give a cautionary tale. Be careful who you take as a life partner. Mine is not ideal.
I feel like I am 78 or something, I have 3 doctors appointments in less than a month to get BC and check on my bad ticker. Shit sucks. For now I am eating plenty veg and smoothies with raw fruits and diet juices. Bleeeckch! lol Other than that this year is ok. I like 2016. I will be joining the gym soon, yeah it sounds cliche, but I have to in order to keep my heart healthy. I choose life. Been coloring in one of those adult coloring books with inspirational messages. I like it, no I love it. Fun stuff! I hung two of the finished pics in my cubicle and it really makes my dull desk interesting now. Well I am off to relax before work. Ciao.
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