The Lioness in the Leo

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I got hired onto my new job Friday. I will work the old one and new one until I see that I can care for myself independent of my other income. Then I can take another well deserved break with my daughters and mum in tow. I still have horrible thoughts about myself for the past few years and working has proven to be the best hobby I could have to forget about them. Money makes me happy and unfortunately is the only thing I want. To provide for my daughters and make my mother comfortable during the winter of her life are of the most importance. I have no space for mean spirited or unapreciative men. This ring on my finger hasn't solved a dam thing as my social media is still exsamined along with my personal items in my home. My few trustworthy friends or folks I laugh with here are also personally attacked on a daily basis and I hate it. I don't do jealousy. I was nearly attacked with an iron hammer yesterday and was accused of cheating. The charger to my car was also taken, then...

Just finished up doing my taxes on my own online and saved myself hella money...I thought it would be difficult but it was a complete breeze. This has been a rough year with finding a good job, paying for projects around the house, and keeping food on the table. I am blessed. I still have a roof over my head, some new goals in life, and my general health is still good. I hope to get back enough to get the kids to Disneyland this year, payoff some lingering credit card debts, and maybe put some savings away. I am also thinking about taking some classes to further my accounting chops and maybe take on payroll in one of these casinos on the strip. According to the website I used (Jackson Hewitt) I will be able to accomplish everything and maybe more if I plan it out right. 2019 is looking promising so far. I hope it is just as prosperous for all of you dear readers. Blessings, love, and light!

Been listing to these lately and I am not sure if they work but I have seen an increase of stray or unexpected monies flowing my way. Found 20 bux laying around outside my moms credit union with no one else in site and then had a friend give me 15 bux for giving him a ride home even though his place isn't out of my way home..give it a try. Can't wait to see if it will help me win any of the cash prizes at the Talent Show coming up. Have fun with this readers...

I have been MIA for a long ass while. Been trying to figure some things out. Mostly love and money. Kids are great, mom is great, but I am stagnant. I have been struggling with my true purpose and value as a person. Searching for the meaning of my existing. There is a talent show at one of the casino resorts here in Las Vegas and that has kept me occupied and detracted from wanting to die. Suicidal thoughts have been kept at bay with arranging my vocals and planning my costume. I pray these feelings will go away someday and I will have a sunnier disposition. But for now I can only try to stay busy and pray. Stay strong readers...