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What the Hell is my Problem? Life...

I am a mom, caregiver, and a wife much to my dismay. Understand that I love my family and their odd personalities but they can be the stuff of nightmares usually. I don't hate them but they are annoying at times. My daughters will be daughters and my mom is a normal cranky elder, yet my husband is my definite source of unwanted bullshit.

Talking with him is hopeless. If it isn't about sports or tits and ass, it isn't interesting. I have always adored someone who keep abreast (punny) with current events and not worried about actual breasts.

When we discuss money he takes a religious turn and often quotes ' If He wants us to have it He will bless us with it'...like really buddy? Don't blame Gods will for your piss poor ways of saving and handling money! Mine have always been in disarray but what 20 something hasn't had bad funds at one time or another? Now 35 and a parent I am more cautious with credit and spending, why can't he be as well?

Sex? Ugh, this is my major issue. I literally hate doing it. Its not fun for me. I use to love comeing home after work and throwing myself atop my guy and having an amazing shag, then maybe a sandwich, then off to bed to sleep like a baby. Now, I don't know if it is age, boardem, or just plain disappointment is my spouse...I just don't want it. I feel myself to occupied with family life and worrying over bills and such, how does anyone find time for fucking? I miss romance and dates and sex, but those can't be attained in the financial climate my husband and I have unfortunately created.
We have colleges to save for, food to buy and cook, and elderly mothers to care for. While my husband is nice to look at, I can only see a lot of work and disagreement, other than someone I lust after. I have tried everything short of Spanish Fly.....I even asked for an open relationship and was met with resistance and ridicule. I am out of ideas...

In short, marriage is hard, momming is hard, and care of the elderly is hard. I hope to post more about my growth with these matters and how to overcome them. Who know maybe I can learn something. Take care readers. 

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