Had a fun weekend, but can not help but have the uneasy feeling I will be jobless come xmas. My current job seems like a scam. They want perfection, yet once you are hired they no longer check for that perfection. Asinine. But I love it there. I love the hours, the compensation, and the one or two nice people I converse with. I hate the lead over my region and the others except one are really stuck up. I love the lady who hired me. Her assistant is really nice too. But I honestly despise the work. It is not too hard, but the standards make me have to walk on eggshells everyday and my family can see my stress visibly in my face. I just wanna bill and be paid. I don't care about promotions or work conditions other than simply wanting to not be stressed. Stress kills, this job may be the death of me. I hope not. I just want to work there until I die, retire, become disabled, which ever is which. Wish me luck. I have prayed everyday only to feel God may not want this for me. I know he has not left me, but has showed me some other options. I hope he is just testing me and will let me have this one little thing, this one solace in my little insignificant life. Until next time, fair readers.
I feel like I am 78 or something, I have 3 doctors appointments in less than a month to get BC and check on my bad ticker. Shit sucks. For now I am eating plenty veg and smoothies with raw fruits and diet juices. Bleeeckch! lol Other than that this year is ok. I like 2016. I will be joining the gym soon, yeah it sounds cliche, but I have to in order to keep my heart healthy. I choose life. Been coloring in one of those adult coloring books with inspirational messages. I like it, no I love it. Fun stuff! I hung two of the finished pics in my cubicle and it really makes my dull desk interesting now. Well I am off to relax before work. Ciao.
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