The Lioness in the Leo

The Weeknd has really outdone himself. This song with Ed Sheeran is my life! We buried the cremains of my grandfather this last Wed and I had really had a rough day...week...year...but when I have my favorite pastime (music) I can live through anything. My job is looking up for the better. I feel a lot more confident. Just some more fine tuning and I will be more than good, I will be great. Hoping to have a a regular weekend with eating and drinking and being merry. Everything for now is coming up roses, all the bills are paid, and my kids are happy. What else can a person want-just chasing the dream. I am a prisoner to perfection. So far I am happily locked up right now. That is all for now.

Selling my car to Carmax Thursday. Wonder what will happen. I hope it will be worth the trip. My aunt and mother went to pick up my grandfathers ashes today for his memorial services next week. I hate that the last I saw of him was frail and stiffening in the hospital just 15 min after his last breath. I am still smarting from the hurt. My supervisor shed love and light on my sadness and made me believe in humanity again. Life is a lot of things...short, crazy, frustrating, but it sure in the hell ain't easy. All that I have been through and I am only 34, dam, what a bazaar road ahead.

Almost time for the new episodes, wonder what else we are going to learn about the Crystal Gems...

A busy and fucked up week if I may say so myself. My grandfather died at 7:11pm Thursday August 13th and now my family is fussing and crying and fighting and all a hot mess. I never imagined the numbness I would feel. The hurt and the empty. I miss him already. RIP 1927-2015. The only thing I have left to look forward to is my trip to the beach next weekend. Santa Monica or bust. I need to get away from it all if just for a bit.

I legit love this so much! Awesome song and I am a huge Steven Universe fan! I watch because it is a good cartoon and I bond with my daughters by watching their shows.

     Planning a trip to Santa Monica. My hubby and kids have never seen the pier and that is a shame! I also want to show them Marina del Ray and Mothers Beach. Great childhood memories there with my dad and mom on lazy Cali Sundays. The breeze, the sun, the surf, and the shopping. Dam I am homesick. I can not wait! I also have pulled together a plan for buying my first home. All I need to do now is find a lender.            I have time though, but just the thought of making the American dream actually come true and work for my family is simply amazing. There are always so many hurdles for the African American/People of Color families when it comes to credit, homes, cars, and jobs yet me and my husband are finally coming up roses. It is pleasantly refreshing.

Long week at work, passed my test to become a Billing Specialist Trainee, and now I rest. Tonight will be full of drink and food and fun. Turing 34 on Monday has prompted me to celebrate tonight. It is nice to finally have something to celebrate about. With all the crazy going on in the world, it is good to just be lost in the quite and calm which is my boring little life. The rain outside in Las Vegas adds to the soothing of my nerves. Total bliss, welcomed after all the stress and work of the past few days. Happy Birthday to me.